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Bottom Blues

 I don't know why, and I seem to have my medical professionals stumped too, I get a sharp pain in my tailbone, from time to time.  No pain medication they have tried, works for me. It's not like something used to work and stopped. Nothing works. Not morphine, not delotted, or any number of other drugs whose name escapes me.  Delotted used to have a slight effect, but only when delivered through an iv, while I was still in the hospital. Now it is administered through my feeding tube and has no effect, even though I now get nearly twice the dose. I will admit that Backlifin has provided some small relief, but only some. I don't know if you have ever bruised your tailbone, if you have your know what I'm talking about, if you haven't just let me say it hurts. Sometimes I will cough, and it will cause me to cry it will hurt so bad. I often do not know my inspiration for a post. Sometimes it is an event or memory from my past that pops into my head . Perhaps it's some...

Sliming Down and Vegging Out

I hate to be the bearer of bad news. But it's now been 10 months since my stroke. And although I probably have lost nearly 25 pounds. And have been on a Vegan liquid diet the entire time.  I still have my gut and thighs. So I don't know what kind of diet you are on, but unless it includes some form of exercise, chances are you are not going to lose the weight where you want to.  10 months and I look like the poster child for some Ethiopian refugee fund! It's really rather disheartening, you would have thought that after all this time, I would be rocking a slim senior body, rather than some Dale Gribble look alike from King of the Hill.  My children have already started it calling me bird legs, when my legs used to be something I would get compliments on. I hope my Vegan lifestyle, doesn't lead to any more weight loss. Next thing you know, people are not going to start suspecting me of being a crackhead!  Even in our later years, there is a certain amount of vanity th...

A reflection is an underutilized tool

 We grew up poor, but we lived in a poor neighborhood, so we didn't really notice most of the time.  But it was the times when the electric got turned off, and our house was dark, while the whole neighborhood was ablaze with light.  Or when my Sisters and I would have to go to school with no sack lunch and no lunch money. Those were the times when I realized just how poor we were, and it wouldn't really bother me, everyone  I knew was in somewhat the same situation.   As a matter of fact, our economic plight, is one of the main reasons I got involved in theater when I was only about 12 years old, however I knew it meant I would have to walk home alone, the nearly three miles, in the dark. It took my mind off the realities of life, which I was beginning to understand, it was up to me, if things were to change. I look at my childhood as a happy one. We didn't have a lot, but I remember lots of good times.  There is no doubt in my mind,  that kids today h...

It’s Q & A Day

Robin asked : If you could teach the readers anything, what are you an expert at?  A: I often wonder if the old adage: Jack of all trades, master of none, was written about me. I guess I have become somewhat of a Renaissance man over many years and many professions. I'd say it has helped me, more than hurt me. One of the most positive aspects, as I see it. Is that it has created in me, a thirst for knowledge. I love to read, and I gravitate, towards more non fiction titles as I once told you. So, it would be disingenuous on my part, to claim to be an expert on anything. However, I did make a living, for nearly 25 years, as a karaoke DJ. And what I came to realize, was that it was really about pleasing the people most.  I could teach you a great deal about how to run all types of equipment, how to work a song rotation, and the best way to protect your equipment, but learning to handle a crowd, well you either have it, or you don't. And I figured out rather early, that the ones ...

Bedhead Poet Society

This is getting tiresome to write. Because of computer glitches, it will be the third attempt at this post. It changes a little each time, hopefully, you will like this version.  Back when I was a young man, about 45 years ago, while I was 15, a freshman in high school, and my future was still unwritten. I dreamed that I'd be the next Hemingway, only younger. So I took a creative writing course, sure to get an A.  I remember that I got a B. Not bad, but not the A I hoped for. For some reason I remember a particular poem I wrote. This is that poem::  I'm not insane as some have said  There's nothing wrong inside my head  It's all up there, it's all in tact  I'm not insane, and that's a fact  I'm not insane, but they don't hear  I'm not insane  It's that they fear  So when the doctor comes back in  Would you please explain to him  And speak to him, as you did I  And tell him your no common fly  Obviously no Elizabeth Ba...

Life long learning and growth

 I had my stroke on September 22nd, 2021, and I guess you could describe the past eight months as the definition of hell on earth. What else could you consider it, when you go from a normal functioning adult, to an almost childlike state, where everything has to be done for you, from feeding to cleaning. It is an adjustment, to say the least. It has also been a time of reflection and personal growth. I realize that before my stroke, I was just going through my days, without really challenging myself, or using my God given talents. I was just settling.  Now I am focused. Though every day is much like the last, I have found that the depth of my mind allows me to challenge myself to new limits. I have always possessed these abilities, it is only now that I have drawn upon them.  We are each capable of achieving great things. But we often times fall into a routine that causes us to settle on the easy way. TV, Facebook, Tiktok, Twitter or any number of distractions can leave u...

Q & A Day

 Q: How do you entertain yourself /How do you relax?  I am choosing to answer these questions together, because they are the same, as far as I'm concerned. Reading, writing and watching movies, and listening to music, are all ways in which I entertain myself these days, depending on how I feel. They also are the ways I relax.  I can't tell you how many times, especially with writing, where I've spent hours, and I've lost complete track of time. Writing has become my number one go-to these days. Although, I often do so while I listen to music in the background. Take a break from writing, when a particularly favorite song is playing. Music is transformative to me. I usually return to where I was when I listened to a song.  Reading is something I do to expand my mind. I lean toward nonfiction and self-help titles but am not opposed to reading books if they can hold my attention. ONE by Richard Bach is a favorite of mine. You should check it out. I am currently getting r...