A change in the gaurd

What was once a symbiotic relationship, has devolved into one of complete dependence.

It is the only way that I will survive. 

Essentially, I have reverted to an infant-like state of existence, except that I have a mind that retains more than 60 plus years, of memories and learning. 

All other faculties, motor skills, speech, and waste elimination are no longer under my control. 

My wife Jonell, and my little girl Lydia, tend to those needs I have that I can't provide for myself, which is almost everything. 

I am fortunate in that manner, to have them in my life. 

I have a strong belief in God and that He puts people in your life, that have what you need at any given moment. 

I am blessed that I  have been given a second chance.

 One that few get. 

I am confident, that when my journey is through, that I will look back at this point of my life, and see but one set of proverbial footprints in the sand. I suppose I could be angry, and bitter that I have been rendered a quadriplegic mute by my stroke. 

When actually, I am thankful that I've been given more time, to survive the type of stroke that few survive. The past year and a half or more of my life has been both painful and amazing. I have met a whole lot of incredible people, as well as some that I would sooner forget. The healthcare system is full of a lot of people who are oozing care and commitment, but like all other professions, there are a few bad apples. I had the misfortune of crossing paths with some of these individuals.

 God willing, I won't have to deal with any of them again. 

I have been reborn, a completely different type of person. One who is solely dependent on the mercy of others. The people I have met, are some incredible people. 

One of them, as I have mentioned in a previous BLOG, but I think it bears repeating, is the awesome and talented, Celia Montes (Did I mention she's awesome?) 

She is the reason I am even able to write this BLOG. As a matter of fact, she publishes it, and occasionally does me the honor, of lending her talents, to help with the writing for the BLOG.

 I am but one of the lucky people, who are on the receiving end of her talents and beautiful heart. 

Thank you, Celia, for all of your help. And thank you for being a friend. 

The readers are also deserving of mention. I really appreciate all of my readers. I always say what is on my mind. Sometimes it's sad. Sometimes it's funny. Sometimes it's even motivational. I don't write this BLOG for your pity, tears, or admiration. I'm deeply thankful for your prayers. 

Besides being confined to this bed, and unable to speak, I am just like you. The progress I am making is slow, almost undetectable at times.

But it is progress, nonetheless, and I thank God for that. 

I have discovered many of life's truths since I have been relegated to the confines of this bed. One of the most important revelations has been that our interactions with one another, are of the utmost importance. 

Unfortunately, I have come to realize, that I can be obtuse in these matters. It has caused me to strain many a relationship. I am working hard to change this about myself. I believe that I am getting better. 

You would have to ask my wife to be certain. Insert smile emoji here! 



It's getting better all the time 

Better, better, better 

It's getting better all the time 

Better, better, better 

         Sung by The Beatles

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  1. AnonymousFebruary 8, 2023 at 6:34 PM

    Absolutely!!

    I think she’d say everyone needs a Bob in their life as well 💜

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